I’m not big on resolutions. Why wait to make your life for the better? However, monthly reflections and goal setting has been REALLY helpful in the last few months. Why not think of the year in the same way? 2011 was tough but I’m thankful I can learn from these mistakes and experiences of mine.
In January, I had just lost a bunch of weight. I was pretty smitten for a bartender. Likewise, I had made many new bartender friends. Despite my 9 to 5, I was staying out way too late and drinking way too much. I was not healthy. I thought I was balancing my self by eating less to not put on weight. That worked… for a time. I was exhausted always, I had no motivation, and I wasn’t really happy. I was just filling a void by drinking. In February, the guy and I broke things off. I continued to go out almost every night but at this point I had lost my food willpower. I put on a lot of weight it had taken me months to get off by not eating enough. THIS is why I will never go back to that weight loss route. My metabolism was shot. In March, I got close to a really great girl named Stephanie. She invited me to go to Europe with her and her roommate the next month. Plane tickets were SO GREATLY priced and my job was flexible so WHY NOT. In April, I toured and walked and ate and had hot flings all through London, Paris, Amsterdam, and Copenhagen. Time of my life.
Things changed for the better when in May, I went on a spur of the moment trip to Las Vegas. I stayed with my best friend and a bunch of other guys in a suite. On this trip, I had a fling which turned into being the main Fella in my life even now. I also wore a bikini and felt AWFUL about myself and how many steps back I had taken. I got back from said trip and vowed to change my lifestyle. I started this blog. From June to July, I really got back into yoga. I started the C25K program and was consistently running. In August, I vowed to learn more about nutrition. I was mostly Paleo all through this month!
In September, I lost my job. It was heartbreaking. I worked in a lab and had formed such tight relationships with my peers and scientists. I went to Atlanta this month to visit the Fella for the first time ever. It exceeded expectations. From October through December, I was coming to terms with having more free time and learning about myself and what I wanted. Yoga helped. As always. It’s still difficult to struggle since I’ve never had to worry about financials before.
NOW, I can run a sub 27 minute 5K, if I push I can run ten miles, I can do a headstand, I can do SETS of REAL pushups, I can palm the ground standing up, I feel confident enough to try new things (like barre and pole dancing), I have lost about 25 pounds of fat and have gained back more in muscle!, I have an easier time setting boundaries with people and saying no.
So from this, I can say from 2012, I want:
- to start down a new career path regardless of whether I think it’ll be the be all and end all of careers
- to learn more about how my body responds to food and activity
- to not feel bad about having feelings and attempting to communicate them
- more self confidence
- to maintain the relationships with all my awesome, possum friends (including all the awesome ftblrs I know on a personal level) <3
- to have even more awesome, porn star hair than this year
- to keep up with yoga